this is not a fairytale

2012-02-18T22:23:00.002+07:00

bahkan untuk menentukan judul pun sulit.

2012-02-18T22:20:00.000+07:00

seandainya, koneksi dunia maya ga ngaruh ke kehidupan nyata, dipastikan banyak orang yang bakal gue delete bbm nya dan gue unfollow twitter nya. makin banyak orang yang ga cerdas dalam menggunakan teknologi saudara-saudara.

2012-02-12T09:34:00.002+07:00

just had yearbook photo shoot yesterday....took a whole day. started at about 8.30 and finished at 6. pheewwww.

2012-02-04T19:02:00.002+07:00

2012-02-03T16:14:00.000+07:00

am i that busy? just realized only on friday i could use computer for having fun. 12 grade killing slowly

2012-01-14T23:27:00.003+07:00

home is not home anymore when you're looking for another place just to find peace.

2012-01-14T23:15:00.003+07:00

ini video temen gue. ga ada unsur promo, i dont even know the owner know about this 'share' or not. well you know what? this video is damn cool.

2012-01-07T22:16:00.002+07:00

is it normal that in this age........i dont like being at home and.............just dont like it........?

2012-01-07T22:10:00.000+07:00

today is superb.having quality time with ka anti ka isna dea. and yeap went home with junpe kevin panjul. thank you so much for made today feels so good.

2011-12-22T16:40:00.000+07:00

this isnt holiday, when school is off but you still study for the big test.

2011-12-08T19:37:00.000+07:00

masih sedih rasanya kalo inget udah sertijab. that moment. waktu ngelepas selempang bertuliskan "ketua tari tradisional" and gave it to the trusted person. woosh.

2011-12-08T19:31:00.000+07:00

somehow making someone loves you so much isnt good. cause you know, you are the only person who will be responsible of that someone's heart. so becareful

2011-12-08T19:26:00.000+07:00

the simpe three words that would make your world turns up side down: i need you.

2011-12-08T19:23:00.002+07:00

still wondering why he always says that im that good cause i dont think i am.

2011-11-25T18:15:00.000+07:00

kalo orang ada yang bilang, masa depan ada ditangan generasi muda. in my opinion, masa depan ada di tangan generasi tua. why? one sentence you always hear is: anak selalu ngikutin apa yang dilakukan sama orang yang lebih tua dari dia lakuin. dan terlebih lagi, anak akan terbentuk sesuai dengan gimana orang-orang (tua) yang ngedidiknya.

so lets imagine, kalo yang generasi muda lihat sekarang adalah petinggi-petinggi negara yang you-know-how-they-are dan guru yang ngajar sesuka hatinya, how this country would be?

2011-11-07T20:41:00.002+07:00

well i just can believe in 'you'll find someone better' sentence. i thought that was cliche

2011-10-31T18:51:00.000+07:00

when mommy's on the phone with my elder sister, and they talked about how to treat the baby. there's only one thing that came to my mind: am i gonna have that conversation too?

2011-10-28T18:26:00.000+07:00

suddenly miss everything. everything. everything. cant even explain it. gosh what the f is happening.

somehow gue berasa ansos banget. i need to spend my time with all of my friends. need it so much. kinda feeling that i just being a loner. do everything just by myself. and boom, i miss my friends. i miss all of the old time(s)

2011-10-28T18:19:00.002+07:00

im just trying to protect someone's feeling huh

with you

2011-10-23T14:18:00.000+07:00

everything feels too perfect.and im just afraid. someone said that something too good wouldnt stay for long.

2011-10-22T23:23:00.000+07:00

"its sweet when you love someone's imperfections, perfectly"

2011-10-22T23:19:00.000+07:00

feels a bit weird when somehow i just still cant believe that im in love with an unexpected person.........

2011-10-22T18:31:00.002+07:00

things went perfect when youre around, mr stalker :p

2011-10-17T17:46:00.002+07:00

2011-10-17T17:45:00.002+07:00

guess what? ive been spending 30days of my lifetime with him tralalalalalala

2011-09-29T21:12:00.001+07:00

i cant choose.

2011-09-18T08:42:00.001+07:00

happiness is you.

2011-09-17T20:29:00.000+07:00

i still cant believe that..........i just owned someone who i never thought that he will be mine

2011-09-09T19:12:00.001+07:00

ternyata dia nyata. bukan dari mimpi :$

2011-09-06T22:13:00.002+07:00

kamu terlalu menyenangkan :)

2011-09-06T21:56:00.000+07:00

kamu itu seperti pangeran, tapi dari negri mimpi.

2011-08-30T14:03:00.001+07:00

blog ini jadi rumah kedua. gue bisa nulis apa aja yg gue mau. tanpa perduliiin siapa yang bakal baca. thank god for this tech :D

2011-08-30T10:19:00.001+07:00

kadang kita semua sibuk bertanya-tanya, kenapa kita harus ngalamin kejadian ini kejadian itu. dan kata pepatah, everything happen for a reason. dan lagi-lagi, kita sebagai manusia, makin sibuk bertanya-tanya apa alasan dibalik kejadian yang terjadi sama kita. akhirnya manusia sibuk bertanya-tanya, berdoa mohon-mohon sama tuhan buat dikasih tau alesannya apa. gue pribadi sibuk banget mohon-mohon biar dapet dikasih jawaban nya secara langsung, entah lewat mimpi ato apapun. dan gue baru sadar, orang-orang disekitar kita lah yang jadi messenger biar manusia tau alesannya apa. kadang manusianya aja yang gak sadar, kalo 'jawaban' dari Tuhan udah disampein.

2011-08-30T10:09:00.001+07:00

di tengah semua orang lagi ributin lebaran hari ini apa besok, gue masih meributkan bagaimana cara nya menjadi orang yang sepenuh nya ikhlas menerima apa yang udah tuhan takdirin buat gue. jalan hidup yang tuhan kasih, dan mau ga mau harus gue terima dan dijlananin.

gue gak pernah tau kalo buat jadi orang ikhlas itu sesusah ini, belum pernah rasa nya gue sesusah ini buat ngerelain dari yang judul nya 'punya gue' jadi 'bukan punya gue'. well maybe the exact thing is, i HAVE TO LET HIM with someone else as SOON as this. and the pressure of this thing is killing me. kenapa gue bilang pressure? karena kalo ga segera mengikhlaskan dia, i just let myself get hurt, so much.

my friend said, lo beruntung, tuhan gak biarin lo ngejalanin kesalahan ini lebih lama. geez. i was like being slapped right on my face. inilah guna nya ngobrol sama banyak orang, kalo gue ga ngobrol sama temen gue itu, mungkin tu kalimat 'tuhan gak biarin lo ngejalanin kesalahan ini lebih lama' gak bakalan pernah terlintas di pikiran gue. but to be honest, im so tired of living in this phase of life.

tracesa on demo ekskul part 1

2011-08-30T09:35:00.001+07:00

2011-08-16T19:10:00.000+07:00

di saat seperti ini, lo harus bangun sendiri. lo ga bisa ngandelin orang buat bantu lo bangkit. yang lo butuh adalah komitmen buat memperbaiki segala kerusakan yang ada.

2011-08-03T14:20:00.002+07:00

it ends. bye.

2011-08-02T08:01:00.000+07:00

im so terribly mad. mad because of what i have to face. what the f is wrong with being together with someone who doesnt have the same religion. well i can let him do what he has to. i just wanna spend my days with him.love each other without thinking how much longer we could stay together. can please somebody tell me the exact reason why i cant be with him because of religion? CAN YOU PLEASE?

oh well at least i dont wanna separate because of this. can we just broke up normally? this isnt normal.

2011-08-02T07:51:00.002+07:00

just a week i could feel the happiness of having him again. oh god can we skip this part of life?

deswita 71 2012

2011-07-25T17:38:00.000+07:00

by the wayyyy rasa-rasa nya gue galau terus disini. so lemme share a bit joy. so im gonna share you some photos of 71 2012 trip to jogja and semarang.

2011-07-25T17:28:00.000+07:00

rasa nya itu sedih. sedih banget. tapi harus ikhlas nerima keadaan.

2011-07-24T21:25:00.000+07:00

life is concist of two. first there will come a destiny, the second you will choose the option of reaction.

2011-07-24T21:21:00.000+07:00

seperti nya rasa ikhlas itu baru ada di mulut aja. belum sepenuh nya gue ikhlas nerima beberapa hal yang baru aja kejadian. well isnt it better to try at least? im on my way dear.

i....

2011-07-22T10:57:00.001+07:00

Hope this kinda feeling end soon

2011-07-15T09:34:00.001+07:00

He's bored. That's the main reason. This is the second. Am I that sucks?

2011-07-14T11:24:00.001+07:00

I miss you. I really miss the time when we spent our day together. I just need the old you

2011-06-11T11:58:00.002+07:00

we have to move on. in a different road.

crakcs. oops thats my heart

2011-06-07T14:06:00.001+07:00

everything reminds me of him. every little things. if people said what i have to do is stay away from my phone's pict gallery, music player. well i guess what i have to do is moving to somewhere that invisible to everyone. where i cant connect to anything. i want to be invisible to anything.

2011-06-07T14:01:00.000+07:00

the saddest part is coming. i was just waiting for the time the bomb will explode. and this is it. countdown timer is ticking. im dying over here. dont you feel it too sir?

i am...

2011-06-07T11:23:00.001+07:00

More stupid than a donkey. He's gone

i wish

2011-05-25T10:35:00.001+07:00

...I could have what I wish. I'm begging to God for this

2011-05-17T17:19:00.000+07:00

mommy nd daddy went to my elder sister's. maybe this is the very first time of my life, that my parents leave me and my sister alone at home. for 3 weeks.

what if?

2011-05-10T09:41:00.001+07:00

People said that even a donkey will never fall in the same hole. What if I am worse than a donkey? What if I fall in the same hole? Will people say that I'm more stupid than a donkey?

too much?

2011-05-10T09:39:00.001+07:00

Everything I felt are growing. I love him more. I missed him more. And what make it worse? I worried about him more. Every bad things come accross my mind. Every-bad-things. I'm dying bcs of that!!! I felt so nervous when he's somewhere out there. even the thought would kill me.

I'm so scared of losing him. And I'm so scared that he'll go for the it reason.

2011-05-09T20:03:00.000+07:00

we're officially have been together for 7 months or 212 days (i count it manually) or you can multiply it with 24 if you wanna know how many hours we've spent together. hahah lil bit over but hey i dont care. this is my longest relationship, norak dikit boleh lah hahaha.

well actually i didnt have a happy day today cause he forgot that today our monthly. a bit fight, but then again and again dasar nama nya wanita begitu mudah luluh -___- hahaha. after school he went to my house. chit chat. hug and kiss on the cheek. he went home. well when youre in love, an hour feels like 10minutes. kinda thinking that i need 24hours to spend with him. even more!

guess what? today i spent 3 hours waiting for my mom sist and daddy at the terrace. at the terrace! i cant get in. the doors locked. great. so im gonna make it straight, gue dan dio melepas rindu di teras rumah, fun huh?

what made my days are great?god, friends, family and of course, him.

2011-05-08T21:27:00.000+07:00

i dont know what happened, kinda feeling that i love fredio more more more im gonna explode. wanna hug him like.................im dying for that

its all about tracesa

2011-05-08T21:15:00.000+07:00

tracesa menang lagi wuhuuuuuu. tanggal 7 mei kemarin lomba di sma 14 jkt. we got 2nd place. im so grateful about this. dan jeng jeng hari ini juga lomba di 59. we still wait for the result, it'll come on 28th may. you must be kidding me. we have to wait for 20 days. hope for the best huh?

mr f

2011-05-08T21:10:00.000+07:00

i love fredio too much. udah luber sampe rumah gue banjir. hahaha jayus. tomorrow is gonna our 7th month. hope its gonna be something. i missed him so much. we've been busy with our own stuff. his stuff and my stuff. i need to spend my time with him. he's kinda addictive. i guess.

hello baby

2011-03-29T20:36:00.000+07:00

woops, its still 2011 huh? oh yea it is.gue pikir ini udah taun 2030 saking lama nya ga nge blog. you know i've been losing my mood of blogging. and whats good? the mood's coming back!!!

busy. yaps i've been so busy with school stuff, tracesa stuff, and............my life. well i kinda starting to enjoy this routine. studying about science. well, i just got it! and i love it! feel so excited to learn more all these things ive studied and the application in the daily life. wowwwww...... \('o')/
and yea i enjoy the routine of being the leader, preparing every single thing for tracesa, i love being a part of my school's osis. i guess i love being in an organization. hihihi

ps i love frd so :$

2011-03-13T18:01:00.000+07:00

i dont get what people usually get. terribly sad

2011-02-26T16:25:00.002+07:00

im a mess. my heart bruised. my mind twisted. i cant stand it.

new baby

2011-02-10T20:15:00.002+07:00

i made formspring account. hahaha so yesterday, but i dont know. i guess it's gonna be fun :p
formspring.maudyrentina
ask anything!

i got my new love(s)......

2011-02-08T22:03:00.000+07:00

seorang penyanyi besar adalah

dia yang menyanyikan kesunyian-kesunyian kita.

orang tidak bisa sampai kepada fajar

kecuali melalui jalan malam.

tidakkah ruh-ruh yang mendiami angkasa iri kepada manusia

karena bisa merasakan sakit?

pikiran kita bagai spons; hati kita bagai sungai.

bukankah aneh kebanyakan dari kita lebih senang mengisap

bukannya mengalir?

realitas seseorang itu bukan pada apa yang dibukakannya kepadamu,

tetapi pada apa yang ditutupinya darimu.

karena itu, jika kau ingin memahaminya, jangan dengarkan apa yang dikatakannya

tapi apa yang tidak dikatakannya.

setengah dari apa yang aku katakan tidak ada maknanya;

tetapi aku katakan juga supaya setengah yang lain bisa sampai padamu.

this is my best-favourite!

this is kahlil gibran's. i love those i dont know what's the name. but i just love it. so much. soooo much. especially my fav one. omg whattf was on kahlil gibran's mind??? he's so amazing!

dear someone,

2011-01-31T17:42:00.000+07:00

im sorry for all the bad things i've done. im a total dumb.

2011-01-31T17:40:00.001+07:00

and i guess....................

.......................im not a good lover

the now 'me' is not who i used to be

2011-01-14T19:29:00.000+07:00

yea i feel that i've changed into someone else. i just realized about this 'change' about 2 days ago, yeah the now 'me' is prefer doing anything at school alone, like go to canteen, go to mosque, and so on. well, when i was at 10th grade, i did lots of things with my friend. but what make it worst is, i love doing this. i enjoy this situation. everything that i do is going the way that i want it to be.

i dont know, is it because of my friends that we usually hang out together aren't having the same way of thinking or doing something, or is it because im having fredio now who always with me.

i guess all of the probabilities are supporting me to be like this. and ah i dont know what to do with this situation. i just feel like im being such a loner. yeah whatever it is, i dont get bothered with this. oh well maybe i do. agghhh this thing is killing me. so bye!

2011-01-10T19:27:00.000+07:00

he said, "pray for me that 8 years later i'll come to your house, see your mom then........propose you"

lets make a new diary!

2010-12-25T18:50:00.000+07:00

ugh! i forgot to say merry christmas everyone. AND HAPPY NEW YEAR. may we have a blessing new 'diary'. resolution? i wanna study harder. i wanna make my mom and dad proud of me. amen

have you felt this?

2010-12-25T18:39:00.000+07:00

a feeling when someone that you love, being sad, then you suddenly feel sad and mad? mad because you all you can do is just saying 'i love you' 'dont ever think that you are alone', even a hug cant be given to that person, when you totally want to hug that person. oh goddamnit. i felt it!

i felt his pain too, his sadness. i never thought that 'it' would hurt him that much. all i wanna do right now? hug him tightly and said 'you have me, baby'

are you asking the result?

2010-12-25T18:27:00.000+07:00

we lost. dont wanna leave any comment about the result by the way. hahhaha. its not about the result. but how we got the result. its okay. take it as a lesson, huh?

another competition

2010-12-18T08:14:00.000+07:00

just joined bulungan cup for rapai geleng competition. 5 teams. 3 winners. god! my heart beat faster when this thing comes to my mind. the result come on sunday. Godblesstrcs

i dont have...........

2010-12-08T18:16:00.000+07:00

....any shoulder to be leaned when i cry.

that sentence means a lot. perumpamaan yang sangat pas at this moment. yap, itu cuma perumpamaan. i just cant describe. the point is, now im in some kind of trouble, because i dont have anyone who can understand me.

omaygat, masalah ini seberapa buruk nya sih dampak ke gue? you may trust me or not trust me, but the truth is I-CAN-NOT-DESCRIBE-WHAT-I-REALLY-FEEL. DAMNIT!

tracesa again

2010-11-17T10:39:00.000+07:00

November 13 was my historical day. tracesa won the rapa'ie geleng competition. 3rd winner.

berawal dari 3 orang di tim yang ga bisa ikut. terus beberapa hambatan sana sini. dan H-1 lomba, penari yang jadi center nya sakit cacar. akhir nya formasi nya di ubah. cuma latihan beberapa jam.

pas tampil. kata pelatih nya kita kacau banget. pesimis udah tingkat dewa.

pas pengumuman, gue udah lemes banget. cuma berdoa seenggak nya juara harapan 3. karna tim-tim yang lain keren-keren. dan ada beberapa sekolah yang emang udah terkenal banget saman nya jago.

yang bikin seneng banget adalah perjuangan buat ikut lomba ini susah banget dengan tiba-tiba ada yang sakit cacar. pas pengumuman yang nama nya pesimis, pesimis banget. dan ternyata hasil nya malah juara 3. dan ngalahin satu sekolah yang emang terkenal banget saman nya jago. thanks God!

puppy love

2010-11-07T15:50:00.000+07:00

baksya sisya angnyana nyakrawati anggara sapta eka

2010-11-06T23:40:00.000+07:00

or baksyana tira saka. the new family. the new responsibility. well, im gonna make it short: i love them.

tinkerbell's birthday bash

2010-11-06T23:34:00.002+07:00

yesterday was my bestfriend's birthday. MONICA ESTHER. happy 17th. we celebrate it at Musro. and im just gonna share some photos :D

me-astari-febbytha

me-karin-ata-astari

astari-andrew-bagas-i dont know who :p - inka-beki-me

febbytha-anty-monic-me

febbytha-karin-monic-me

me-datita-reynatte

the birthday girl as tinkerbell

2010-10-19T20:53:00.000+07:00

boleh pinjem telfon ga?

hah? mau ngapain?

mau nelfon tuhan.

hah? buat?

mau bilang ke tuhan, malaikat nya lagi sama aku.

hahahahh dont you think that's sweet?

2010-10-17T16:08:00.000+07:00

have been so busy lately. osis stuff. yeah drives me crazy slowly haha. well, say welcome to mr fredio. for being a great man :D

thank God for.....

2010-10-08T21:01:00.000+07:00

....sending me an angel who has been a reminder of 'how it feels to fall in love' and 'how it feels to be loved'

2010-10-05T16:36:00.000+07:00

cause when you're around i can fall in love everyday

mocca-on the night like this

crap!

2010-10-03T10:38:00.002+07:00

2010-10-03T10:01:00.002+07:00

look like someone should take a responsibility of my unusual heart-beat hahahah

2010-09-26T14:16:00.004+07:00

part 1
tuh.
apa?
itu. bibir menjadi penunjuk arah.
...
tes.
tanah yang persis ada di ujung stiletto-nya basah.
airmatanya langsung jatuh menghajar bumi, tanpa melewati pipi.
kata leluhurnya, airmata yang seperti itu tanda kepedihan yang terlalu dalam.

part 2
kamu tau apa yang ia lihat?
tidak.
seorang pria.
itu simpelkan?
tidak untuk cinta yang hidup dihatinya untuk pria itu.

part 3
he's dead.
what the ...! are you serious?
yes.
how come????
i killed him.
ARE YOU CRAZY?
nope.
THEN???!?!?!
i killed him...........which lives in my heart.

2010-09-24T17:27:00.000+07:00

well look like the swan already fell in. lets pray for the swan.........................

2010-09-22T22:38:00.000+07:00

wow look like you have lost my respect on you. with what you've done. you just turned into a jerk. a type of boy which i hate the most.

what if.......

2010-09-22T22:35:00.000+07:00

a swan fall in love with a duck?

this is what fit the best

2010-09-17T19:27:00.000+07:00

@viatumblr: I miss how we used to be. #viatumblr

yap. this is what i really feel.

2010-09-15T18:57:00.000+07:00

hurt.
where? you look fine.
here. inside.

this is what......

2010-09-13T18:45:00.000+07:00

found on tumblr

........i suppose to do.

2010-09-13T18:41:00.000+07:00

found on tumblr

2010-09-13T14:03:00.000+07:00

i dreamed about him, this morning. it felt so real. gah!

which one that you really missed?

2010-09-13T11:41:00.000+07:00

i found this on myfriend's tumblr. it said this:

i miss the way things used to be.

yeah, maybe i just missed the 'way' not the people.

hayo tebaaaak :p

2010-09-08T19:57:00.000+07:00

ka anti-ka isna-me-dea

do you find something in this pict? :p

goodbyeandseeyou

2010-09-07T11:21:00.000+07:00

so now i really really decide to stop thinking about that. i wanna move on. go on with my life, and say goodbye to every pastimemories. start a new page of life.

okay im leaving. there will no distraction from me anymore.

see you on another phase of life.

-maudy rentina-

another kind of help

2010-09-07T11:12:00.000+07:00

my friend just broke up with his bf. pas mereka putus, si cowo nya ini nge chat gue said they just broke up. blablabla, then i asked about this thing to the girl and shes very sad, yea as we all know, girl more often being sad after broke up. and i guess i just changed into a messenger for them haha. tapi mereka saling ga tau kalo gue nyampein hal-hal yang mereka kasi tau gue.

sampailah ke satu momen, where the boy told me that he still misses her, and he said this 'ya tapi rasa sayang gue ga ilang kok sama dia'. wow. i think that is a great medicine for a broken-heart-after-break-up. then i told the girl about what he said. terus cewe nya bilang kalo dia sedih tapi seneng gitu. terus gue bilang 'ya seenggak nya kamu ga kaya orang bego kan sedih-sedih kangen sama orang tapi orang nya malah bodo amat'. guess what she replied? 'iya makasih ya maudyyy aku jadi tau'

jlep. gue langsung me-rewind. how hurting that kind of feeling, kangen sama orang sampe sedih seharian, tapi orang yang di kangenin bahkan notice pun enggak. but then gue dateng ke temen gue for telling her, an info which every girl wanna know when they are missing someone. he gave a feedback.

ga kebayang seberapa lega nya, jadi temen gue itu. ternyata dia ga jadi 'orang bego' itu. ga kebayang rasa seneng temen gue itu kaya gimana, karna ada yang mau bantuin soal 'itu'. ada yang masih care. even sometime your very best friends dont give you a hand.

i felt happy at that time. ikut ngerasain lega nya kaya gimana. and i hope that would help her. and also i hope oneday someone will do the same to me. everyone needs that kind of help. am i rite?

h...hhave you?

2010-09-06T13:53:00.000+07:00

have you ever..........emmmm suka sama orang, seneng kalo dia nge hubungin, rasa nya pengen ngobrol terus, but there's one thing yang bikin lo nahan itu semua? press all of the desire just for saving that person's heart. have you? if yes, then what did you do?

where's the distraction?

2010-09-06T13:50:00.000+07:00

better to share something in blog than twitter i guess. hem okay, hari ini, well belakangan ini, suasana hati lagi kacau balau, between seneng, sedih, sakit hati, kangen. dan di perparah dengan................i have no idea, i have no reason why i feel that way. kangen? ga tau kangen sama siapa. sedih? ga tau karna apa. seneng? juga ga tau kenapa. sakit hati? ya juga ga tau karna apa.

bingung ga sih? banget kan? pusing ga jadi gue? i think i need a distraction from all of this damage.

i am weak

2010-09-05T14:20:00.000+07:00

even for saying your name im not strong enough.
but i have lots of strength for feeling the pain.
for remembering all what have happened.
and it hurts me bad when you look happier with her.
when you look really love her.
when you look 'im not playing with her, im serious'
when you set your bbm status into her name.
when you set your bbm display picture into her photo.

oh well do i really get hurt or just get envy?
o_O

silent love

2010-09-03T17:10:00.000+07:00

i got this from pramborsfm.com

"Does your heart smile everytime he's around ? it's a silent love, if you let it be untold "

saman job

2010-09-03T14:16:00.000+07:00

my first job \('o')/